Even though I am halfway through my week of concentrating on right speech, today I also found the opportunity to practice mindfulness more extensively.
The process of living is such a fascinating experience when you experience it from the aspect of the eightfold path.
Today I noticed extreme tiredness and disconnection around mid morning.
It’s true that I hadn’t slept well last night (I haven’t slept well for a long time), however this was different. It wasn’t a sleepy tired, it was more than that.
I was booked in for a work teleconference at 11am, so I made myself a cup of tea about 30 minutes beforehand in an effort to focus my mind and wake up a bit.
And it occurred to me to question – why was I so tired?
And the answer – because I was resisting.
Anyone who knows me well knows that I dislike talking on the phone. I mean REALLY dislike. Apart from speaking to my mother, I will avoid all other calls as a general rule. Text – love it! Email – definitely. Facebook – just try to stop me.
I realised that I was unconsciously resisting having to have this work teleconference. For no particular reason – I liked the other caller, and have had regular pleasant dealings with her (via email :p).
However my distinct “don’t want to” undercurrent that was in the background was making me excessively tired.
So I re framed the situation. I spent time thinking about the opportunities in the conversation. For connectedness, for kindness, compassion, and deep listening (yes, even in a work call).
By the time she called, I was calm and ready and enthusiastic.
And the call went really well. And afterwards I felt GREAT. I felt happy and lighter and more cheerful. And I realised that was because it was such a good phone call – and the positive interaction with another person had brightened my day.
So that was where “right speech” also came into play today. During that conversation, and also others that I had during my day.
Blessings to you all,