I’m going through some personal problems at the moment, and it’s made me deeply realise how tenuous and fragile my practice is.
It’s so easy to fall back into old patterns.
I’ve been able to feel myself fully consumed in this current challenge. And yet I haven’t been able to step away from it.
Although I am grateful that at least this time I can recognise how fully “caught” I am. Which is a huge step in the right direction.
Because to acknowledge it means that I can do something about it.
And tonight I’ve realised what is causing a great deal of my suffering – apart from actually fighting against it, and the pain I am feeling, I am also fighting against acceptance.
I’ve come to realise that when we are facing a problem, we have two choices: accept what is happening, and look for the positive. Or fight against it, and decide not to accept it – and be miserable.
So I am choosing acceptance.
And I’m choosing to see the lessons that are available for me to learn from this.
Love & blessings to you all