In sickness and in health
For most of today I was the sickest I have ever been. Through either food poisoning, or a virus. All I know was that it was very challenging.
I’m so grateful though to have the support of a wonderful neighbourhood of people around me.
One family took my 6yo boy and looked after him for the day.
Another brought me drugs so that I could finally progress from the bathroom into my bed.
I can’t even put into words how grateful I am to each and every one of them.
They are truly my family ♥
I am also very thankful for the experience of actually being sick. It was a great opportunity to be mindful of my automatic reactions to the illness.
And to note my feelings of distress at how sick I was. And my feelings of panic and anxiety.
I was even amused to note my thought patterns. Which were along the line of “this is a catastrophe! I knew that I shouldn’t have gotten my hopes up and felt happiness. I’ll never be happy again”.
Can anyone say drama queen??!
Buddhism urges us to awaken to the fact that illness is not something permanent in life- it is a temporary phenomenon. When we fall ill, we tend to see the current sickness as the only thing that matters and therefore it can be a foreboding obstacle separating us from happiness.
Some people who are ill may even lose the will to live out their existence joyfully.
However, when we realize that becoming ill is a natural part of our lives -and that it can be an opportunity to build an even more solid foundation of happiness in ourselves – then, we can tap the courageous spirit to face the illness and battle it.
And as pale sickness does invade, Your frailer part, the breaches made, In that fair lodging still more clear, Make the bright guest, your soul, appear.